I'm doing something new today. This is a message for EXO, including Kris. I hope the poem's okay :)

Kris by Cheryl

Starting as 6, I was happy.

We sang, we danced.

We screamed our joy, we cried our sorrows.

Always together.

Joining our counterparts as 12, I had doubts.

We promoted, we performed.

We had fans, we had stalkers.

We healed and we hurt.

All as 1.

Breaking up again to 6, I lost heart.

We earned, but not enough.

We were pressured, I broke.

They had hoped, but I had given up.

Now, we separate.

I am alone.

They are together.

But never again, as 1.

Fighting EXO! I saw your performances of Overdose, and I want to cry. All of this is sudden and your actions, your words are so forced. I strongly feel that it’s your company, but I will never really know. I can only support you guys as you are 11. I just don’t want a new member of EXO-M. No one can replace our utterly dorky and weird Kris. Please don’t replace him and try to get through this. I hope that you will still be able to communicate with each other and I hope that you will always be friends. I love you guys.

Kris, I hope whatever’s happening in your life is getting better. I hope that my letter to you guys got to you guys in time. I love you as much as I love every other member of EXO and I can only wish you the best in whatever happens in your future. You leaving will always make me sad when I think about it, but I’ll get through it if you will :). Fighting! Good luck in everything you do. I wish for your success.

So... today, I watched EXO's performance of Overdose. They were lip-synching... maybe that's why. They've also just lost their Chinese leader, Kris... maybe that's why. Well, I don't know why.
I don't know why the hell I can't feel towards them anymore. I used to be so excited, so happy, so incredibly pumped watching them. Now, I feel that they are machines, trained to perform.
I can't feel their energy, their passion, or anything towards their craft! I don't feel that they are excited or happy performing at all. I just feel sad and worried watching them. Are they okay? I don't know. I CAN'T KNOW. I can't find out.
Is it because my heart has moved on to some other group? Have I moved on? I don't know, I don't know, I don't know! I've never been good at reading "signals" or reading my own heart. I don't know what's happening.
They feel incredibly distanced from us. If I met them, I feel like their vision would go right through me, like they weren't actually looking at me. If I saw them in concert, which I've wanted to since forever, I feel like I wouldn't enjoy it because my worry would consume me. They feel so dispirited, not energetic, dispassionate, and sad. Just sad. I don't know what's happening. Are you guys okay? Please tell me. Are you? I can't feel you guys anymore. I can't feel anything towards you guys, towards the people on stage. I can't.
Please tell me how you guys are doing. Please. Have you guys read my letter? I love you guys.





To my readers (not that there are any, but...), sorry about this post. I just need to get this out there.
Finals/Regents are coming up, which means that summer vacation is coming, so I'll be posting more stories on here soon. Thank you for reading, if you do. Bye :).